Dear Diary,
I feel like the "populars" live off of people. Like a dinosaur lives off of other dinosaurs. Only the "populars" are more vicious. They can only survive if they are the center of attention. They stole everything dear to me. My personality, my self esteem. Even my best friend. She said that we would be friends forever. That she would never do what she turned and did do to me. She betrayed me, for them.
The walk to the football game that day was hard. She walked up the hill with me, and the "populars" walked in front of us. She said, "I think that I'm going to say hi to the 'populars'. Just to annoy them."
"OK." I replied. But she wasn't just going to say hi. I was left alone the whole football game. At half time I went to look for her. I found her. Sitting with them. She didn't see me. Thank God. I went into the bathroom and cried. I didn't know after that who she was anymore. Who I was. Was it something that I did? Am I too big of a dork to be her friend? She was friends with the people she said were snobs. Stuck up, conceded people. It started out with the clothes. Hey, I don't care if you go around strutting your soccer jackets and your basketball jersey. Who cares if your hangin' out with your possey of basketball heads. Not me! But I did care. She started to ply with them to. Sounds kiddish, but she told me herself that she hated basketball! But I ignored it. But the last straw came when I said hi to her in the hallway. After about 2 weeks of not talking.
"Hi." I said."How's it goin'? Is basketball fun?"
The next thing she said to me broke my heart.
"Hey, sorry, I forgot your name...is it Ellie?"
I said nothing. I didn't know who my real friends were anymore. I guess I was just another loser. Without friends.
This is actually a true story, but I don't like to say any names.
ReplyDeleteOh my gosh..this is so deap and sad! I almost wanted to cry! This happened to me...I'm sorry. I really liked the voice in this. I feel this way also and you expressed it with so much emotion.
ReplyDeleteEmotion is a good word...
ReplyDeleteThat's terrible! I agree with Meg, I like the way you expressed with emotion.
ReplyDeleteEmotion is a good word.. it is a word.. so I like it.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much. But I have had a lot of support from a lot of people. Thanks guys. I am glad that I have true friends.
ReplyDeleteYou do have true friends, Ellie! I'm ur friend!!! That's really sad.......I remember that night, too...it was so...chaotic, and confusing.
ReplyDeleteI am glad that you were there to get me through it. Thanks to everybody out there for helping me in my time of need.
ReplyDeleteHey Ellie, so when was this? It is a really good piece. I can practically see it, probably from reading a lot of books. :) And Ellie, you aren't a loser. You are a fun and awesome person who has a lot of friends.
ReplyDeleteIncluding me :)
ReplyDeleteThis is SOOO true!! Why have millions of snotty friends when you can have a few that really care about you?
ReplyDeleteI agree with Monica, Ellie your a fun and creative person! Who cares if the so called "popular" people like any of us, as long as we have each other! Your a great friend Ellie! Don't let anyone tell you otherwise:)
ReplyDeleteSome people don't have the sense to figure that out for a long time Monica. And yes, it is very sad.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much Carly!
ReplyDeleteYOU have a ton of friends!! You aren't a dork either! I am more of a dork than anyone. :P
ReplyDeleteMonica is right. I'd much rather have a few friends who care about me, and I can be myself, instead of being popular with bunches of friends who don't care at all.
ReplyDelete@Nicole: That is exactly what I was trying to get across in this piece. Thanks for understanding.
ReplyDelete@Everyone: Thanks guys so much. You have showed me that you don't have to be COOL to have friends. You can be a total dork and still have friends. And I would have the honor to call all of you my friends. <3